Guess I Was Wrong....

After Friday I thought that everything would go back to normal between us.  Guess I was wrong.  Like I am most of the time. 
Nothing between us is ever going to go back to normal.  We can't trust each other.  We have to try though.  Yeah I have my doubts that everything is going to work out fine between us but I think we can do it.  I mean we must be supposed to be together because otherwise we wouldn't still be together now. 

I feel sorry for Ryan.  Nothing "major" happened in his relationship and now he's heartbroken.  They were perfect together.

I guess in a way so are we.  There are just so many things that I don't understand and never will.  I wanna be okay with you again.  I don't wanna keep feeling like we are on the edge of arguing or breaking up. 

Talking earlier to Tors I realised that the "spark" isn't really there anymore.  I want it back before I go into a complete meltdown on her.  She doesn't deserve to have me cry on her anymore - I have too many times before....
The one thing in my life that I need at the moment - apart from Tors - is you.  You make my puzzle complete.  And I know you are reading this.  You probably will still be weird but I'm just hoping that soon we're back to being us again....