Am I Hiding The Truth?

So I lost my "bestfriend".  What can i say without her getting grumpy about it?  Nothing.  No matter what I say she will turn it against me so that it is all my fault.  For one week I just wanted to be with steven, I wanted to be with him before he went away.  I still had enough time to see her this week.  I had nothing planned.  But she started saying, you could've not seen steven one day and seen me.  and no matter how many times i tried to tell her why I was seeing him and that I have time for her next week she wasn't listening.  I didn't have any money to do everything she wanted me to do anyways. 
I'm not giving up, but i'm not giving in either. 
For once I wanna be me and look at the world from a different point of veiw.  I don't think I have found who I actually am yet, and maybe the summer term is going to be full of surprises....